Pondering

I posted this picture with tonight's post because it reminds of a time when I seemed to be in a better place. I've spent all day at home, not really wanting to be around anyone. I'm feeling burnt out on life. It's a hard feeling to describe, because I don't particularly feel depressed, but still right under the surface I feel a deep sadness. As pathetic as it sounds, I only feel happy when it's just me & my dogs or when I'm at work --working with animals all day long. I thank God for blessing me to have a job that I truly love with all my heart. No matter how ungrateful I may seem, I know I could be somewhere else working a job that I hate. I don't really have many friends and that's actually a good thing, cutting some people out of my life has been a great thing. But sometimes (like recently) I feel like the few people that I call friends are unhealthy (for me). My heart sinks every time I think of Augusta, I'll always consider her a friend, but it hurts to think that her life is in jeopardy. Bradley is a great friend, but I'm feeling pretty distant from him, I can't quiet seem to move past the "past" and I'm about ready to just move on and be happy with just hanging out with me & my dogs. They've never turned their back on me, so I feel like our friendship is a for sure thing. I just thank God tomorrow is Monday and I go back to work :)