Forgiveness is powerful

I was just sitting here thinking (as usual) and listening to some music. Blessed by Rachael Lampa to be specific. The song is important to me because it's the one song that single handedly made one of the biggest impacts in my life --ever. It's funny how we find ourselves ready to throw in the towel and give up, then what seems to be suddenly or out of nowhere God sends us a ray of hope. And "Blessed" was literally my saving grace in 2001 when I was going through the most difficult year of my life. Though things are not going the best right now in my personal life I am choosing to believe that it will all work out for the good.

I am dealing with some people who seem to only want to drain the life out of me. People who would rather see my mistakes instead of my effort to be a good human being to everyone. Sometimes I feel alone. The outcast. My theology on life has always been really simple: Love and forgiveness should be like breathing, let it be a natural thing. Love until it hurts, love until you think you're going to explode from all the love you have inside, love without condition, love because it's what unites us all. I admit I fail from time to time. I allow my emotions to win the battle sometimes, but thank God for new days.

Today at work I honestly felt overwhelmed. I was being pulled and pushed in every direction. Today composure was completely underrated. I wanted to go somewhere and just wail at the top of my lungs, just for the sake of feeling I was letting the stress out. I think the only reason I remained calm and focus was the fact that I know God has blessed me greatly with a job that I love. Animals have always been my life, and I thank Him for letting me have a job that I all I have to do is work with critters. In the mayhem today I found myself feeling that no one noticed I was giving a 150% of myself. But I know all that matters is He saw it and understands.

In my personal life I am feeling a little 'used' (if that's even the right word) by some people. I want to approach things right. Next to my thoughts on love, I feel that forgiveness is one of the most powerful peace movements one person can make. I forgive you for any wrong you may have done to me, and I hope you can find forgiveness for anything I have done to you. If it's ment for me to cut ties with some people I will be willing to do that. I just don't think it's in the cards for me to be used or mistreated. Anything to seek my goal of peace....unbridled peace