I wish I could help

I'm sitting here.  Anticipating tomorrow.  Not in a good way because my mind is going in a thousand different directions.  I'm speechless.  My heart is aching for my Aunt.  I hate the feeling of being helpless because I like knowing that there's something I can do.  In this case I know there's nothing that any of us can do.  On Saturday, March 27th, her precious companion, her baby, Muffin went home to be with the Lord after 15 years.  For those of you out there who truly value your pets, you understand the deep dark pain that comes when you lose one of yours.  In our eyes they're not pets, they're family and when they leave us it hurts just as much.  Muffin has apart of our family since I was 10 years old.  Tonight I lift my Aunt Toni up in prayer for strength because I know it hurts.  I can't understand or explain why things like this happen.  I just trust that God will hold her up.


I know that lately things have been so hard
And looking out through your broken heart
All you can see is dark and lonely days ahead
But remember Jesus said...
He knows every star in the sky
Every single tear that you cry
His love is here, faithful and alive
I know that this world can be cold
In His arms you're never alone
That's His promise to you and I

We Belong Together/Fly Like A Bird

Just wanted to share one of my favorite MC performances. Enjoy!

We made it

Another long day has been successfully completed.  I'm not sure if was the full moon or what, but today brought us loads of emergencies.  Perhaps I jinxed myself by thinking it was going to be a "light" day based on your surgery/exam schedule.  All I'm going to say it we made it and thank you Lord for such a strong team of people. We worked like a well oiled machine.  Now with the day behind me I am going to relax.  Watch TV and drink a fat glass of wine.  Until next time...

Update: work pt.1

It's been a busy week.  I apologize for my absence.  As most of you know by now there's been a lot of changes going at job.  I'm nervous and excited about the future.  Thanks to everyone of you who keep my name in your prayers.  I need them now more than anything.  I've spent the last few months in prayer and thought about this love I have; my job.  I knew some changes would be taking place this year, and the thought of a certain person becoming my "boss" just wasn't going to happen.  However, every time I had a negative thought of a particular person that I honestly wanted to get rid of I heard this little voice in back of my mind saying don't you make a move, I've got this.  One thing I've always believed in is karma.  What you put out there will come back to you with double the power.  I'm too afraid of trying to dig a grave for someone else, because that's when you end up hurting yourself.  So with that said I've remained firm...just standing, waiting, believing that God's taking care of me.  There's nothing like giving up what little control you think you have.  Well here I am...believing, just believing that the best will work out in the end.

Leisure day

The sun is shining, there's a nice cool breeze light blowing, and I'm off today!  Could today get any better?  The most productive activity I've been able to do today is take my dogs out for a nice long walk.  It would have been cruel for me to not let them enjoy this beautiful day.  Now I'm going to continue my own personal Sex And The City marathon.

No choice but to swim

In life I find those who take a stand and who go against the flow in order to remain true to themselves to be the most inspirational influences.  How simple it is to be typical and 'follow the leader'.  No, no no.  It's about being an individual.  The road for those of us who believe in the phrase "I'm free to be me", don't travel so easy.  On this road we encounter loneliness & rejection - almost to the point where you stop and think somethings wrong with me.  I have learned to stop thinking that way.  I think it's a natural thought pattern after years of being an individual.

To those out there taking a stand in honor of your liberty, continue to fight the fight that wages war against your life.  Stand tall, stand strong...this road is only so long.  When no one calls to give you those words of encouragement to go on, remember that we all have inner strength inside us.  I remember nights when I prayed and truly believed that someone would be sent my way to give my encouragement.  Almost every time, I was left feeling lonelier that before - loosing more and more faith in mankind and my 'friends'.  Through those terrible experiences I learned that inner strength is found when you're alone and have no one to rely but yourself.  It's either sink or swim.  True fighters look at it from one point of view: SWIM!  No choice but to swim.

I say never give up, never give in...seasons change.  And know that your day is coming.

No time like the present

I know, I know I've been away too long.  I admit I've been a little self absorbed as of late haha.  Between work and being sick I haven't had time to update.  Hope everyone is doing great.  Tomorrow's Friday - another week behind me (amen).  Tomorrow I want to give it all I've got and do an even better job while helping to improve the lives of animals.  For the last couple of weeks I've honestly been giving it 90% of what I've got because of my utter disgust with certain people in the work place.  Years ago I told myself I would never let the politics change how I feel about my job, because it's something I genuinely love.  It's always easier to say it than do it.  The laziness of some people is just appalling, to the point where I want to just meet them at their game.  I can be lazy too, if you want me to play this game with you.  However,  I've had to step back to remind myself that some of us do this job because we love animals.  I won't be pulled into mediocrity because of someone else's short comings and lack of ambition.  I'm not waiting for next week to come before I choose to start over.  Today is the day...now is the time.