Coping with neglect

Update:  I'm doing much better.  Last night I hung out with new people for the first time.  One person in particular that I truly had a "connection" with in terms of my view of life & friendship.  I still kind of have my guard up because I don't want to be hurt again.  And I don't want to jinx anything, but I have never felt more understood than I am right now.  I've bared myself before this person, scars and all.  I have wounds that are still healing, in the mean time I am going to give it my all to live on & forgive.  It's a constant reminder to myself to not give up on all people because of one person taking advantage of me.  I'm still looking forward to having some time away to think and relax.  I've already begun to see God's purpose in all this.  And I know it's for the best.  It has not been the easiest week of my life, but I'm hanging on and doing what is "right", even if it is hard.