one day at a time

I've been blogging more than usual lately for two reasons: to keep those who care updated on all that has happened with me and I find emotionally uplifting to be able to write about how I feel and get it out there.  Today has been a good day.  At times I've been kinda down & sad because it still hurts to think of how much my life has changed in the last week.  But I'm continuing with my plan to move on and be strong.  I only have a few more days until my vacation begins.  Today I talked with the person who hurt me.  I felt more closure than I could have ever imagined I'd feel.  While listening to them I felt empty in a sense.  I still haven't been given a reason as to why I was left by the wayside, but I can be honest and say I'm fine with not knowing.  I don't want to know anymore.  Too many good things are coming from the madness that I thought I couldn't survive.  I feel as though by the person abandoning me I was emptied of a lot of things and it makes me happy to truly know this person now.  Because through the abandonment, I've been forced to move on and not turn back.  I think how we respond to situations shows our character and who we are on the inside.  There have been times since Saturday that I've wanted to go to war and strike the final blow, but I know God has taught me better.  If vengeance has to be served, then He'll do it.  This situation is out of my hands.  I am finding myself beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel and I believe one soon I'll be happy again.