We take the hits and move on

I was awaken this morning by a killer headache. This happens from time to time, usually I just have to ride it out until it's over. That is why I am up at 3:30 a.m. I thought I'd update my blog, for those of you who keep up with it. Yesterday I talked to Teckie about the drama that has seemed to surround my every move lately. Teckie has been my best friend for years and knows the "real" me. There has literally never been a problem too big or small for me to come to her with. I've always appreciated our friendship, because no matter what, we've always been straight shooters with each other. However, I decided it would be best not to mention the events of the last few months to her, because after all she is getting married in a few weeks and has a lot on her plate. But I'm so thankful to the Lord for sending me a friend that "gets" me. She has been my real "therapist" since before we graduated. When she found things hadn't been going good, she immediately does what she's always done. She asked me flat out to be honest and tell her what's been happening that I've neglected to mention to her. Not in a bossy or overly aggressive way. Fact is, Teckie has always been a no nonsense kind of person. She likes to get to the meat of things and move on. Today I got to do my final unload (that's what I'm calling it) on her. It was almost like it was God's divine timing. I have spent the last few days not worrying about who likes me and who doesn't, who's betrayed me and who hasn't, etc. I've just been at peace. But I think Teckie really gave me the final push to just seek peace and move on.

Starting Tuesday morning we corresponded back and forth through email about the current status of both our lives. This is what we typically have to do because with both our jobs it's hard to just stop and have a two hour phone conversation. Her final email of the day contained a few really powerful, honest, yet simple, and caring words of advice that pushed me over the edge into this newfound freedom. I'm sharing a few of her thoughts in this blog because the advice was just that impacting and life-changing for me. She has sort of been dealing with the same situation of abandonment too, so she knows where I'm at. The one part of the email she sent has forever impacted me. It read : "We take the hits and move on!....For now, I'm moving on and doing all I can to make sure my mental, physical, emotional, etc. well-being is top notch."

We take the hits and move on --that's it exactly! I don't know why this didn't just hit me earlier on. Maybe it was meant for me to go through the season of loneliness in order to truly deal with the pain. I keep hearing Teckie say that line over and over again. And she's right, there's nothing I can do about what has been done to me but accept it and move on with the lessons that come from the situation. There's no point in trying to get revenge or seek justice. God will handle that part at the appropriate time. I intend to focus on keeping myself in top form and letting the rest take care of itself.