Keeping my head above the water

Things have been going good this week.  I'm still gripping to the hope that this year will be better than the last for me.  Funny though, this year started out rough.  Co-workers being fired, some quitting, overload of work, etc.  Doesn't it tend to always go that way?  You make plans for peace & serenity; at that exact point in time the storms decide to rear their heads and with all their might, they attempt to blow you away.  Funny thing, how life works.  Let's thank God for therapy.  If it weren't for that, I'm sure having to work with some of the people I work with would officially send me off the deep end.  But whatever, like I said thank God for therapy.

My session Monday was special for me, because I got the chance to stop and look at how much I've grown since starting in September.  All those 'issues' are practically non-existent anymore.  So many people have been left behind during this whole process.  That has been something that I've noticed, when you stop caring what everyone will think, you start to enjoy life.  Who cares what people think???  Just be you!  Whoever that may be.  I used to think that I knew myself, but I was wrong.  I only knew small scattered fragments of the person I am.  Now in putting together all the pieces I have only just begun to see the person I am.  A person with a lot of hurt, accessorized by an extreme load of baggage.  A damaged person; deeply scared from pain of the past.  Mistakes I made have been lingering and hovering over me.  A person with a lot of love to give.  A person who desires to be happy and free.  I do believe one day that I will be able to write a blog in which I can say the bitter taste of resentment, blame, & neglect are gone and done with.  Until then, I will continue to press toward that mark of restoration and enjoy the life I have.  I can't lie, though I have down days my life is a good one.  It keeps getting better.